But somewhere was having a private party, so I ended somewhere else.
And now after somewhere else, there is somewhere, actually many somewheres that I could be.
But I don't want to. For some reason, I just don't want to.
I want to be at home(or at least my BNB) and not out, not in the night chaos.
The night chaos hasn't called to me in awhile. In fact I've noticed that the only way I'm able to tolerate the night chaos is if I drink myself into my own type of chaos and I just don't want to do that either.
It's a strange feeling for me.
I just want to be home, chilling, thinking, enjoying the moonlight.
But for some reason I feel a guilt sensation? Like I need to be out, somewhere?…that's what people do right? It's Friday…
When I get back to Tulsa I pretty much have nonstop plans for a week straight and it's not my favorite but at least now, while on a lil vacay, I can just chill if I want to.